What made you stop being an addict?

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

Why do gun owners feel the need to defend themselves with deadly weapons? Can they not just talk things out like civilized people do?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

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Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

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I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

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So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

How can I fall asleep fast at night?

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

Why do people keep saying they have evidence and have presented it that proves you're wrong even though they have none and haven't presented anything? Furthermore, what do they think you're wrong about?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

Why was Cars 2 so bad?

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

Read that again ☝️

Why can't my adopted sister accept she is not part of my family because she isn't related? Why can't she stop calling my parents mum and dad?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Why would a girl not want you to know she has a crush on you?

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

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Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

What would happen if the Soviet Union had simply annexed Manchuria after World War 2 or kept it independent as a puppet state allied them and separate from China as China was too weak too oppose it anyway?

And I can also talk to them now.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

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Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Should I believe JD Vance's claim that Tim Walz lied about needing medical intervention to get pregnant?

This was February 2019.

Just keep trying

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

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There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

I did it in my administrator's office.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.